another not so likely dream

October 10th, 2006 by liyam

was around 4pm, i was sleeping and started dreaming. when suddenly in my dream there was this character that entered and grabbed me. it was dark, i couldnt see the face. i presume it was a woman because i grabbed her back by her waist when suddenly she pushed me back and torridly kissed me, i was at shock! the dream changed, everything started materializing. i was already lying at my back and still noticed, this dark being was still kissing me. i knew from there on that i needed to fight, so i did. but i couldnt move my arms, nor my legs. and i was fully aware that i was still asleep, yet, i could see everything around me, as if i were awake! inside my room, i was at my back on my bed, and this dark being on top of me… not just on top of me, shes floating on top of me! shes all black, the aura was black, shes all darkness! i had no choice but to fall back from battle (like ive always been doing since). i had to wake up, i forced my eyes to open. and so i did, then i asked myself, who was that? WHAT was that? i thought about it for a while, stood up, looked around, i thought of doing a ritual but i was too tired. i just made the sign of the cross and said "Lord, give me protection", that i guess is enough for a ritual. then i  went to sleep again. i slept so well i woke up sooooo late, i had to take the leave. gosh, i can tolerate those kind of dreams but i hope getting up so late wont happen again.

whispering in my thoughts

October 5th, 2006 by liyam

sunday evening, october 1, i was fixing my friend’s computer a few blocks away from home. it was a few days after the storm milenyo struck the whole metro without lights and killing around 200. our area still didnt have any electricity 3 days after the storm, yet on my friend’s block, they do have otherwise.

when i arrived and started fixing his PC, i was being given a few shots of red horse. being tired and without electricity at home, it made me feel quite a bit sleepy when the wind from a fan started hitting my skin. alright, i doozed off a lil bit and laid down to my friend’s bed, instructing him with my half eyes closed telling him what to install on his PC and what not. it was already past 12mn when i decided that i’d sleep over since i was feeling a bit groggy and yeah, did i say there was no power at home? anyway, i was about to hit the sack when something was telling me to go home. i tried thinking, but there was something thats pushing me to go home. so i did. i packed my things up then i went off.

when i got home, i saw a bright light inside, dark smoke going outside the window. i hurried and opened the door. i saw my computer table in flames! bro left the candle on top of some plastic case. i hurried and whacked the fire with a cloth, and hurried to the bathroom, got some water and poured it on the table to kill the fire.  the room smelled like burnt plastic but luckily i did go home. when i woke up i thought about everything… divine intervention? a very big thanks to whoever spoke to my thoughts that night.

nursing boards retake, cool! but what’s with these “passers”?

October 3rd, 2006 by liyam

after the big humiliation of these board passers got from the exam leakage, the gov’t found a way how to redeem the passers honor by ordering them to take another exam. but this time, at the government’s expense. good news? of course it is! i feel for those people who couldnt land a job because firms and hospitals all over the world know theyre passers that had a leakage or they think they passed because they cheated. now, why arent these people happy? others said they dont wanna take the test anymore. arent they glad they can claim their rights to become authentic registered nurses? one lousy explanation ive heard was this: "time and money will again be spent for reviews and all". cmon! werent they studying well while in college? you wouldnt really be needing those review sessions if you did. boards is just an exam to prove that you know your course well. its like telling everybody that they have the know-how at the back of their heads. to prove to all that they have grasped the skills and they know what they will be doing when they land a job. i find it so weird why they fear the retake… or most probably they were the ones who took advantage of the leakage. God help us if those who cheated will be the people i’d see in hospitals who would take care of me when i become sick. in that case id rather help myself than let these people take care of me.

croak! sono kawazu ga zenki de

September 16th, 2006 by liyam

it really never fails, whoever i argue with gets red-hot furiously pissed at me and im sure he/she’d punch me if we were face to face. hahaha!! i really should have taken psychology instead of computer science. a #up irc operator got pissed of me interfering he said. hence, i taunted him more… and more… and more… lolz! (hey, he started it) goodness, just when you think a certain person is a smart one, hoping would accept the challenge for intellectual masturbation. well, because he is from UP i think… makes him at least a candidate for intellectual robustness. you later find out that he is… i dont know….


sensible logic, was i banned because of being maepal? no.  i should have not been given the chance to speak out and throw his trash back up to his face if epal was the reason lolz! humiliation. thats the key… the ego~ the ego~ i stepped on someone’s ego~. lolz oh well. i argue alot, and at most times i prevail.

hey dont get me wrong, im not angry, but i surely see what he really is… just like his nick, it reveals something:

kato wa seishi ga mitai ne! soshite, seishi wa ochinchin kara. kakute, anohito wa mara da ne!

lolz. till then

global tv service straight from the internet

September 5th, 2006 by liyam

I used to dream about this possibility that i get to watch HBO asia and other international tv networks right from your computer. then after i browsed highfiber.org there’s a link i saw that caught my attention… "Watch Cable Channels Free!" i checked it out then whoa!? a dream come true!

TVU networks made it possible. you download their software and there they have available networks that you can view like CNN, NBC, FOX news, disney, cartoon network, etc. for free (but i dont know until when they will keep it free.. i hope forever!!!).

TVU networks enables anyone to broadcast TV programs to global
audiences cost-effectively. Its service is based on a number of
patent-pending technologies, covering high-quality video coding,
efficient real-time P2P distribution, and effective digital rights
management. TVU networks is founded and led by the veterans of digital
TV, Internet, software and TV programming.

are we being deceived?

August 15th, 2006 by liyam

this is worth the read…

FYI: the luciferians have the same belief about DNA manipulation that caused the quick transition of evolution from neanderthals to humans. but for them, it was lucifer himself, the arch angel that gave humans spiritual freedom and not God. but this has a different context but you will find the similarity of the luciferian claim.

http://www.theforbiddenknowledge.com/genesis/index.htm

Genesis Revisited

 

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THE SISTINE CEILING 1508 - 1512
    THE CREATION OF ADAM (1511) On the vault of the Sistine Ceiling,
Michelangelo painted nine scenes from Genesis, of which the most famous
is THE CREATION OF ADAM. Here, the listless body of Adam is about to be
animated by the spirit of God at the gentle touch of their fingertips.
This potent image may have been suggested by the Latin hymn VENI
CREATOR SPIRITUS, in which God restores strength and courage to the
weakened flesh with a touch of his finger.

 

The Adam - A slave to the gods

 
  The story of Adam & Eve is widely misunderstood by both the
Christian community and Evolutionists.   Many people actually think
that the entire human race stemmed from just two individuals named Adam
& Eve.  Evolutionists claim that we all originated from a "soup,"
while Christians fail to recognize that there is far more information
in the ORIGINAL bible then the  translated versions.

   As you will learn from other pages on this web site, Satan controls
the church.  And since Satan is the
    King of all liars, it would be wise to beware of what is being
taught in the church.   Many people who do go to church do not even
realize that it is controlled by Satanic forces.   Rather than thinking for
themselves,  most let the ones who run the church do their thinking for
them.    Many high level individuals who run the church have been deliberately lied to by
their superiors.  Freemasonry rules this world, it is the art of
lying.  Freemasonry is the work of Satan, the Prince of Darkness.   It
is important to note, most people who go to church are believers in it
and are unwilling servants.

   Creation stories from all around the ancient world all have a common
theme, where mankind is created from dirt, mud or clay by a divine
being.   These stories are all similar to the biblical Adam & Eve
story.   This similarity extends to the Tower of Babel and the Great
Flood stories as well.   The Alaskan Eskimos, ancient Egyptians,
Japanese, and South Americans all tell us that their ancestors either
were transported by their gods or their gods taught them their
languages or writing.   One place where you wouldn’t expect a creation
story to be similar to the Adam & Eve epic, is Australia.
   

   The Aborigines in Australia tell of a creator being named
Indjuwanydjuwa. Indjuwanydjuwa is said to have created this world. He
created everything Himself. He created a man and a woman from the mud. He then told the man and woman to make more people to fill the
country. This creator told the Aborigines they could eat the fruits of
the plain, fish, turtles etc.  "It tasted good," He said.

   The tail of how mankind(Adam) was created is a difficult one to
believe at first, however, when you do extensive research into this
subject, it screams at you.   The above mentioned similarities within
the creation stories of mankind, The Flood and the Tower of Babel all
have a common root.  And this root is in ancient Sumeria.
   

 

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Sumeria - The Garden of Eden   

 

Christians
hardly ever talk about ancient Sumeria.   It is a shame, because Sumer
is where the Garden of Eden was located, which is in what we all know
today as Iraq.

    The argument over Evolution and Creation has been going on for quite some time now.   Both sides had better read the bible again(and in its Hebrew original).

   Christians get themselves into trouble when they say that mankind
was created by "God."   Many are not aware of the fact that the bible
reflects that humans were created by more then one "god."   "And the
Lord God formed Man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his
nostrils the breath of life,
and Man became a living soul."  This is in chapter 2, Verse 7 of the
book of Genesis, King James English translation, and it is what
Christians believe.

   If Christians were to study the Hebrew bible, which is the ORIGINAL,
they would discover that, first of all, the creative act is attributed
to a certain ELOHIM—- a plural term that at the least should be
translated as "gods," not "God."  And second, they
    would become aware that the quoted verse also explains why "The
Adam" was created: "For there was no Adam to till the land."   These
are two important — and unsettling — hints to who had created Man
and why.

   There is another problem that exists, "God said, Let us make men in
our image, after our likeness"; then the suggestion was carried out:
"And God created man in His own image, in the image of God created He
him; male and female created He them."  The problem is pluralism.  The
suggestion originates from a plural entity who addresses a plural
audience.

     As both
Orientalists and Bible scholars now know, what went on was the editing
and summarizing by the compilers of the Book of Genesis of much earlier
and considerably more detailed texts first written down in Sumer.

   Ancient Mesopotamian tablets say there once was a time where there
were no humans on earth at all.   Instead, earth was inhabited by the
gods.  The gods were mining and exploiting earth’s resources.    Life
on earth wasn’t easy for these gods.  As one tablet says:

When the gods like men
    Bore the work and suffered the toil-
    The toil of the gods was great,
    The work was heavy, the distress was much—

   The gods were not happy with their situation.  They were prone to
complaining, backstabbing, and rebellion against their leaders.  They
needed a solution, a new race of slaves to take over their back
breaking work.   

 

 

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Cuneiform tablets (ancient Sumeria)          

 

The
ancient Mesopotamian civilizations recorded a great deal of their
history on clay tablets. They tell a remarkable story about the gods
and their relationship to humans.  These tablets reflect that the gods
had male and female bodies, and they bred by sexual intercourse.  In
fact, ancient Mesopotamians stated that they provided these ruling gods
with human prostitutes.

   Ancient Mesopotamian tablets credit one "god" in particular with
supervising the genetic manufacture of Homo sapiens.   That "god’s"
name was Ea.  Ea was the son of Anu, who was the ruler of another
world.  Prince Ea was known by the title, "EN.KI," which means "Lord
[or Prince] of Earth."

   Mesopotamian texts portray Prince Ea as an advocate who spoke before
the council of the gods on behalf of the new earth race.    Ea opposed
many of the cruelties that other "gods," including his half brother,
Enlil, inflicted upon human beings.

   Human civilization suddenly pops up around 4,000 BC.   The only
written history that we have is for the past 6,000 years.  The Great
Pyramid of Giza reflects the biblical record revealing 4,000
    BC as the year The Adam was created.  You will find a link to the
Great Pyramid of Prophecy on the links page which backs up this
hypothesis.

   So, where did we humans come from?   We have the Bible and ancient
Sumerian clay tablets telling us that the Great Anunnaki were
responsible for mankind’s creation as a slave.   But how did they do it
exactly?

     Many people are unaware
of the sudden extinction of the Neanderthals and the sudden appearance
of human beings.  Evolution isn’t that fast!   Messrs. Howell and White
pondered this question and concluded:   

.
. . the utter, almost abrupt disappearance of Neanderthal people
remains one of the enigmas and critical problems in studies of human
evolution.

Encyclopedia Britannica concurs; "The factors responsible for the disappearance of the Neanderthal peoples
are an important problem to which there is still no clear solution.

   When the idea of creating a primitive worker made it to the council
of the gods, they wondered how can you create a being intelligent
enough to use tools and to follow orders?    A Sumerian
    text has immortalized the answer given by EA to the assembled
Anunnaki, who saw in the creation of an Adamu the solution to their
unbearable toil:

The creature whose name you uttered –

IT EXISTS!

      
    All you have to do, he added, is to

                                       
    Bind upon it the image of the gods.

    These are the words which
hold the key to mankind’s creation.  The bomb which blows both
Creationism and Evolution out of the water.   They talk of a creature
that already exists on earth.   What is this creature?   And, what are
the gods going to do to this creature?

 

 

 

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The process envisioned by EA
was to "Bind" upon the existing Apeman/Apewoman through genetic
manipulation.  In other words, they combined their genes with that of
the Neanderthals, upgrading Neanderthals to human beings.

        The ancient Sumerians witnessed the Neanderthals, they called them "Apemen/Apewomen."
They also considered them to be a totally separate species, unrelated to humans.

      The term Adamu, which is clearly the inspiration for the biblical
name "Adam," and the use of the term "image" in Sumerian text, which is
repeated intact in the biblical text, are not the only clues to the
Sumerian/Mesopotamian origin of the Genesis creation of Mankind.  The
biblical use of the plural pronoun and the depiction of a
    group of Elohim reaching a consensus and following it up with the
necessary action also lose their enigmatic aspects when the
Mesopotamian sources are taken into account.

      The verse, "God said, Let us make men in our image, after our
likeness"; reveals not only God in the plural but it also reflects that
we humans are genetically connected to the Elohim.   So, here we have a
bible stating that "God" is plural and He addresses a plural audience, and we also have Sumerian texts which
tell us the gods upgraded a primitive creature.   The riddle of the
sudden disappearance of the Neanderthals has been answered.

 

         

         

       

       

         

         

         

Primitive Creature "God" Slave
NEANDERTHAL ANUNNAKI HUMAN

NEANDERTHAL + ANUNNAKI =  HUMAN

     Seems far fetched doesn’t it?  No.   Since the gene is the unit of
heredity, are there any Neanderthal genes that survive today?  Well,
since Neanderthals were VERY hairy we best look for hairy people.   
The comedian/actor Robin Williams is a very hairy individual.   Who did
he inherit his genes from?    There are many individuals who have the
hairy attribute.   Some Neanderthal genes survive even to this day.

I have three links to the same news item,  if one
    link is down, you have two others to try. .

http://www.expressindia.com/fe/daily/19970712/19355423.html
http://cnn.com/TECH/9712/17/britain.neanderthals/

http://rense.com/general/neand.htm

      Modern science has finally caught up with ancient Sumeria.   It
is amazing how modern man can consider ancient stories "Myth," and then
later prove them NOT to be Myth.

    
   It is interesting, not one ancient civilization wrote of evolution.
They all tell similar stories of creation that run parallel with the
biblical Adam & Eve story, where man is created from earth.
Again, all these stories have a common root, Sumeria.   If Evolution
was taking place, it should have been written about in ancient
cultures.   We see that both Creationism(as taught by the church) and
Evolution with regards to Mankind’s debut does not fit in with the
evidences presented.

The Original Sin

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picture of Adam & Eve with the Serpent can be misleading unless you
have done the research.  Most people would look at this picture and
think that the Serpent is Satan, when in reality it represents God.
It was God/Ea who wanted to teach the truth and it
    was Satan who wanted to prevent the human race from recovering
spiritually.

   As long as Mankind accepted their servant status, and obeyed their
"masters" all of their physical needs would be met and they would be
permitted to remain in their "paradise" indefinitely.

     The Latin word for "apple" and for "evil" are identical (malum),
the apple came to represent the forbidden fruit (Knowledge) of the
Garden of Eden.  It is therefore often used to symbolize the fall into
sin, or of sin itself.

        The
bible tells us that God commanded Adam & Eve not to eat of the
fruit.  The fruit is symbolic for knowledge.   In the above picture,
Eve is taking the fruit, then she and Adam eat it.   Was it Satan who
told her to eat of the fruit?
Certainly the Serpent in the tree suggests that!   But again, it is a
misunderstanding.   The Serpent is Prince Ea.

      After EA created the human race he wanted to teach humanity truth
in spirituality.  But the other "gods" wanted to remain in control of
the Adam.  EA formed an organization called "The Brotherhood of the
Serpent/Snake."  Its original purpose was to educate the human race in
spiritual truth.

        The other
"gods" didn’t want the human race to be free, all they wanted is to
control the human race.   So they taught falsehoods regarding Prince
Ea.  They taught that Ea was evil, calling him Satan, Prince of
Darkness, evil encarnate etc etc, a bunch of lies!    Ea was against
the harsh treatment of the human race, he even spoke out against it.

      Here is the pivotal moment in the history of mankind.   Satan
overthrew God/Ea and took
    control of the human race and spread lies, turning the Brotherhood
of the Serpent against Ea.   Satan fooled everybody and switched places
with God.  So the correct way of looking at the above picture is to see
God in the tree as the Serpent and God, who had forbidden the learning
of knowledge, as Satan.  There is only one of the two, either God or
Satan, who would lie or withhold information.

God = Satan, Satan = God

And
this is where the "Christian" community fails miserably.  Most do not
study ancient Sumeria(Eden) to even know what the truth is.  So most of
them believe that the Serpent is Satan when in fact it is EA, a FREEDOM
FIGHTER!

       For many Christians this might be unbelievable, yet there is hard evidence
which  proves that Satan traded places with God and deceived the
world.   On this site you will read pages which reveal Satanism within
the church of God.

        After
Mankind ate of the fruit(learned knowledge), they knew they were
naked.   This reminded them of their slavery to the "gods," something
that was EXTREMELY unpleasant. These evil gods clearly did not want the
human race to recover spiritually.  The reason, they wanted slaves.
Humans do the work, while
these "gods" live in the lap of luxury.

 

Therefore the Lord God sent him [Adam] forth from the garden of Eden, to till the ground from which he had been taken.

 

So
he drove out the man; and he placed at the east of the garden of Eden cherubim [angels], and a flaming
sword which turned every way, to shield the way [prevent access] to the
tree of life.

Genesis 3:23-24

        Right after
Mankind ate of the fruit he was cast out of "paradise,"  cast out of
Eden.
The "flaming sword" symbolizes the no-nonsense measures that the gods
undertook to ensure that genuine spiritual knowledge would never become
available to the human race.

        To further prevent access to such knowledge, Homo Sapiens were condemned to an additional fate:

And
to Adam, he [God] said, Because you have listened to the urgings of
your wife, and have eaten from the tree of which I commanded you not
to, saying, You shall not partake of it: cursed is the ground for you,
in toil will you eat its yield for all the days of your life: Thorns,
too, and thistles will it bring forth to you; as you eat the plants
from the field:

 

By the sweat of your face will you eat
   bread, until you return to the ground; for out of it were you taken: for dust you are and to dust will you return.

Genesis 3:17-19

 

        The above passage reflects that the gods never intended humans to rise above the level of arduous material existence.   It would leave little time for humans to seek out the understanding they needed to become spiritually free.

        And just as portrayed in the movie, "The Matrix,"  Satan controls your life.
The top 5% of all Freemasons worship Lucifer.  The quotes from Masonic authors which are at the bottom of the previous page proves that.

        This war isn’t
just a physical war, it is a spiritual one.

        I poke you in the shoulder with my finger.  I ask, "Is this your body?" You say, "Yes."   I then ask, "Well, if that’s
YOUR body, what are YOU?"   The answer is obvious, we all are spiritual beings animating physical bodies.

There is another way also to make a person understand that he is not of the physical:
   
    1) Tell the person to look at the body. It’s quite obvious, he/she can see that.
    2) Tell the person to close his eyes and look at a picture of a dog. The person will
create an inner picture of a dog. You tell him: "That’s your mind." The person  will probably agree.
    3) Ask the person: "Who is looking at the dog?" And the person will probably get an insight or answer: "It’s me." Then you say: "And who is you?" The individual will most certainly understand right there …

You think that’s air YOU’RE breathing?   Hmmm?

       As Agent Smith was chatting with Morpheus in his office, Agent Smith was standing at the window looking down at humanity and he said, "Have you ever stood and stared at it? Marvel at its beauty,  its genius? Billions of people just living out their lives, oblivious.  Did you know
that the first matrix was designed to be a perfect human world, where none suffered, where  everyone was happy.   There was a disaster, no one would accept the program,
    entire crops were lost.   That was a reference to Eden.  Put 2 and 2 together.

http://www.theforbiddenknowledge.com/behavior/index.htm

fuckin drop callers

August 2nd, 2006 by liyam

ive had it with anonymous drop callers!!! dont you find it annoying? you’ll receive a drop call from some number your phone doesnt recognize. making a call to that number, he/she’ll answer the phone and leave it hanging while youre on the other end keep on saying "hello, who’s this?" over and over again. [strike one] then sending the person an SMS msg then you’ll receive a reply that youre bad-mouthing blah blah blah… [strike two] FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!! its around 4am with a stressed mind and some asshole is trying to play mind games with you. yeah indeed after that he/she said "sori liyam". i apologized for messages and gave my reason why. then i asked… "so, who are u?" there was silence… and here comes another msg and then the txter claims its a wrong send. [strike three!!! youre out!!!]

aint it irritating that your question gets neglected?! thus, feel the wrath of the great liyam, i said if he/she’s not gonna tell me who he/she is or inform me that im removed from that anonymous texters address book (so there will be no more wrong sending texts) then im gonna pimp the number on the internet and in IRC channels… well i still didnt get any info… thus, feel my anger.

09064110303 - whoever you are… enjoy.

for the 1st time in 5yrs, im again considered a kid

July 15th, 2006 by liyam

yeah some people tend to be too assumptuous, after i give them a dose of my child-like antics they consider me somewhat like… immature. remarks like "yeah, bata ka pa nga" hahaha! they make me really laugh. too shallow, yet, it is an honor.. NOT lolz!

i am a mirror of you… what i am is what you are. thats how i play around

roll call…

July 13th, 2006 by liyam

07:13:06:03:00

sitting on mr. big man’s chair, i snoozed. going thru subconcious state, i started creating visions… im still me, still in the same area, same yellowish dim lighting, but facing towards the door. then came a woman who i cant remember, she holds a paper with her two hands as if shes going to make an announcement of some sort. few secs more, she started calling names. i heard mine, we were asked to go to the manager’s office, i trembled, i opened my eyes. bad dream? i hope… *croak*

::nihongo for today::
miseiri (remaining, pending)
hora! (look! - verb)

its time to log them in

July 12th, 2006 by liyam

since i was 7 i started experiencing weird stuff around me which i noticed is getting worse as i grow older.  i had this rash on my upper lip that lasted for more than a month, a faith healer said that an entity called "taong lupa" casted a curse on me. after i was healed, years passed then toys missing the next morning, and sometimes old toys showing up from nowhere. dwarfs playing with my stuff? probably.  when i was 12, someone was wanting some attention, id hear someone say "psst!" past midnight while i  was fixing my airsoft guns or gundams. id check my neighbors and all of them were asleep.  this certain incident that i shall never forget; one morning, a woman in white passed through a mango tree and never show up on the other end it was 5:30am that time. when i was 19, i was playing the piano past 11pm, i saw a lady in white pass behind a mirror so swift but i was so certain that it was a female in white, followed her going towards the kitchen then shes gone.  seeing that lady again floating slowly next time while i was drinking with friends, a female friend also saw her that time. it was the 1st time that i felt how sad it is to be a ghost. i felt emptiness, i knew then that it was the feeling of life after death. last 2003, i was in cityland shaw tower when i heard a woman weeping as if the sound came behind a concrete wall. there were nightmares as well of spirits torturing me in my dreams, the pain is still felt even after i wake up. this i recall, the year 2004, it was the 31st of october, as i started dreaming these 3 entities engulfed in white light with eyes flaming red showed up, they started hitting my body, hitting me with sticks continuously until i managed to wake up, same pain was felt around my body it didnt make me sleep for 2 nights, until i figured out what was wrong, a picture of an old globe with a mirror on its background. i removed it then i slept well the next night. earlier years when my dad was alive, imps would come after me in my dreams, i had no idea such description of imagery was existent until i found out later on after i started to have interests with ghost stories.

there were also deja vu’s, i recall some of these visions that actually happened after 6 months or so, one example of that is this company im working for now. months prior to my employment to this company i had a dream, i was working with a guy and somehow i knew the guy well. i was near the corner workstation sitting beside him, after i woke up i had no idea who the guy was but in my dream i knew him very well. months later i was employed, flashbacks started hitting me as if i were to faint… i sat still and told erwin; "napanaginipan ko na to…"

this time those visions are coming back and most of them are very unlikely so far. i just hope it was caused due to stress. but i wont take any chances this time, hope that someday i will figure out which is true and which is stress induced. so much as well as to keep myself on the right track than discover later that i had let lose some unlikely shit.