yeah some people tend to be too assumptuous, after i give them a dose of my child-like antics they consider me somewhat like… immature. remarks like "yeah, bata ka pa nga" hahaha! they make me really laugh. too shallow, yet, it is an honor.. NOT lolz!
i am a mirror of you… what i am is what you are. thats how i play around
07:13:06:03:00
sitting on mr. big man’s chair, i snoozed. going thru subconcious state, i started creating visions… im still me, still in the same area, same yellowish dim lighting, but facing towards the door. then came a woman who i cant remember, she holds a paper with her two hands as if shes going to make an announcement of some sort. few secs more, she started calling names. i heard mine, we were asked to go to the manager’s office, i trembled, i opened my eyes. bad dream? i hope… *croak*
::nihongo for today::
miseiri (remaining, pending)
hora! (look! - verb)
since i was 7 i started experiencing weird stuff around me which i noticed is getting worse as i grow older. i had this rash on my upper lip that lasted for more than a month, a faith healer said that an entity called "taong lupa" casted a curse on me. after i was healed, years passed then toys missing the next morning, and sometimes old toys showing up from nowhere. dwarfs playing with my stuff? probably. when i was 12, someone was wanting some attention, id hear someone say "psst!" past midnight while i was fixing my airsoft guns or gundams. id check my neighbors and all of them were asleep. this certain incident that i shall never forget; one morning, a woman in white passed through a mango tree and never show up on the other end it was 5:30am that time. when i was 19, i was playing the piano past 11pm, i saw a lady in white pass behind a mirror so swift but i was so certain that it was a female in white, followed her going towards the kitchen then shes gone. seeing that lady again floating slowly next time while i was drinking with friends, a female friend also saw her that time. it was the 1st time that i felt how sad it is to be a ghost. i felt emptiness, i knew then that it was the feeling of life after death. last 2003, i was in cityland shaw tower when i heard a woman weeping as if the sound came behind a concrete wall. there were nightmares as well of spirits torturing me in my dreams, the pain is still felt even after i wake up. this i recall, the year 2004, it was the 31st of october, as i started dreaming these 3 entities engulfed in white light with eyes flaming red showed up, they started hitting my body, hitting me with sticks continuously until i managed to wake up, same pain was felt around my body it didnt make me sleep for 2 nights, until i figured out what was wrong, a picture of an old globe with a mirror on its background. i removed it then i slept well the next night. earlier years when my dad was alive, imps would come after me in my dreams, i had no idea such description of imagery was existent until i found out later on after i started to have interests with ghost stories.
there were also deja vu’s, i recall some of these visions that actually happened after 6 months or so, one example of that is this company im working for now. months prior to my employment to this company i had a dream, i was working with a guy and somehow i knew the guy well. i was near the corner workstation sitting beside him, after i woke up i had no idea who the guy was but in my dream i knew him very well. months later i was employed, flashbacks started hitting me as if i were to faint… i sat still and told erwin; "napanaginipan ko na to…"
this time those visions are coming back and most of them are very unlikely so far. i just hope it was caused due to stress. but i wont take any chances this time, hope that someday i will figure out which is true and which is stress induced. so much as well as to keep myself on the right track than discover later that i had let lose some unlikely shit.
Envy - a feeling of grudging admiration and desire to have something that is possessed by another.
this is one of the so called cardinal sins in catholic tradition. Logical this is to know also that this iniquitous deed is a root that would cause theft, self-loathing or even death (should you still figure out why it is a sin?). in the philippines, the most action taken due to envy and selfishness is another filipino characteristic called "crab mentality". a metaphor that means "if I can’t have it, neither can you". Being envious to a fellow, he/she then tries to pull the person down. thus, there is no growth. i dont sound like ranting, do i?
